Critical Move...

It is important to understand at a game of chess, it is the struggle of negotiations that will win the battle. I wish to speak about the needed ability to understand and tackle a situation. Growing beyond the game, let us understand the needed ability to be an emperor...more than the accepted honor of authority, it is a title of nobility : conviction to lead by example.

Several moments in our lives, we would probably see ourselves at that stage of the game, when all our trusted men (resources) are down and we are left alone to seek a way forward. We are reduced to believe that all is over and we are bound to lose, it is easy to lose one's grip on life. Am I to change my beliefs with which I led my forces ? I realize, because of constant loss of support, I surrendered my soul and my corporeal self can be understood as a mere synecdoche for a society.

I need a revival, to seek my lost ground ...all by myself, live by my principles and lead by example. To surrender my soul, was probably a mistake...but I am a true warrior and shall contest to conquer...Every move shall be a calculated one to destroy the fatal forces, weave a rich and a balanced tapestry of comfort for my bleeding soul. I shall seek to play the critical move...for I am the emperor!

Note: I am not an expert authority in Chess, but these recordings are what I have learnt from my experiences with Chess. Though the analogy presented will need little or no knowledge of chess. Recorded : Dakar, Senegal.

Seeking Beyond : A Promise...

" Those who tell stories, rule the World..."

                                               - Plato

Shifting uneasily on my bed, the dream of yesterday night still playing on my mind...I woke up with a start, only to find the sun shining into my line of vision. I clear my throat and shake my head, "what a weird  dream!" Perhaps, promises were never meant to be part of reality...or probably it was just me, with rather unpleasant experience of a promise.

A Promise ruled my world of imagination and fantasy with its stories which were far from true...yet it captivated my soul and gave me warmth. For what the truth was, what it has come to become...and what will remain, my emotional attachment is too profound to be ignored. But there are certain situations in life when it is better to cut clean and acknowledge their true self...the promise will remain a disgusting epitome of morality. It pushed me beyond the need to recover from hurt and disappointment. Nothing will ever take away the value for each happy and memorable moment I experienced, and the promise will remain a promise to remember...a promise never kept.

Circles of Trust....

 

It is always a tough choice to make, when we wish to understand who in our lives can be trusted upon, and whom do we have to be careful about. Today, I wish to present my argument and a method which will be helpful to understand and to space people in our life accordingly. 

My concept of belief and trust is a continuous process of placing people in our lives in a certain circle of trust, depending on our experiences...as and when we encounter them. We have four circles of trust to accommodate everyone we know,  strangers...new acquaintances, new people in our life enjoy membership to this circle of trust, then we have trend based friends...trend here means a particular phase in our life, while at certain workplace, certain school of study... we make friends, who we know better compared to people who are strangers, but we are not completely comfortable with them to enjoy a greater rapport, they come in this range. The next circle of trust is good friends..friends whom we grow with as a person and whom we have come to believe in....and finally, core group.. family and other significant people in our lives occupy this circle.  As I said, no position is permanent, and we always understand and grow as a person...as and when we realize or understand someone in a better way, they will either continue to enjoy the same circle of trust, or move to a different circle depending on whether our learning about them is positive or negative. 

I wish to discuss how people belonging to these circles can be understood, and identified...strangers  represent outside world, they are influenced by competition and our personality.. they always tend to pull us down by being negative in their remarks....as we move into the trend based friends circle... these people tend to be generic support function...people who will have no real benefit or loss, when we win or when we lose..they enjoy the protocol principle of being polite and positive.. they support with a word of encouragement when we are depressed and a congratulatory message when we win.. it means nothing to them.... people in good friends circle tend to be critical in their view, they hold us when we are unrealistic, they tend to guard us against arrogance, they will be negative in their view and try to present the other side of the coin, so that we will be cautious and take the right decision...Finally, people in the core group support you even when you cheat on them, hurt them..they stand by you during your toughest times, even when you hurt them  badly....speak about the brighter side of life...to instill in you faith and confidence... 

On any given day, it is not bad to lose someone from the stranger or the trend based friends circle....probably painful to let go a true friend....but to lose someone who stood by you even when you hurt/treated them  badly ....I shall not consider myself worthy to live anymore, because I believe one can keep his billions only if he is careful about his pennies...I shall rather die... 

P.S.:  I treat everyone with the respect they truly deserve...

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This post is a part of the talk by Abhijith Jayanthi at Ghana in 2009. It has been modified into a commentary to include explanations needed. © Copyrights Reserved.

Jealousy....

Today, I wish to write about my experiences with Jealousy...As Françoise Sagan once said, " To Jealousy, nothing is more frightful than laughter", it is always important and interesting to understand the delicate  nature  of emotion one needs to deal with, when someone in our life is jealous and we happen to be the object of interest.  It is important for us to decide which side of the argument we wish to support. I wish to focus this attempt of mine to dwell on various aspects of jealousy...possible influences and reasons for sustaining itself.


It is important that we need to understand the difference between the experience and the outcome of a certain situation. It is important that we need to try recreate a moment of confidence...a moment of belief, which will remain in the memory of the subject, and will help her/him to understand how she/he is wanted in our lives. While it is important to instill confidence, it is always important to understand the basis of such a belief. Life is a journey.. a journey where we need to make choices... choices which will influence how we which to decorate our lives...decorations which we wish to live with...It is a pleasant feeling to appreciate the emotion of being cared for, and it is always important to realize the necessity for us to keep the moment alive...with our sincere efforts..

 Jealousy...is a dangerous emotion, if handled well, it will help us grow as a person to seek the beauty beyond doubt...if we do not happen to respect the emotion, it will be painful...possibly beyond human comprehension.


I dedicate this post to a friend of mine...I wish to draw your attention to a realization of mine, which I have to come believe in rather reluctantly, What we are as a person, is what we are...doubt and trust are important facets of any relation...what will be ...will be, it is important for us to understand the value of life and value of ourselves... and others in our life.

Butterfly...

" Children...Today, I shall tell you a story...a story about a butterfly...my butterfly!

When I was a small kid, just like you. I use to be as playful as you all are...mischievous and naughty. I wanted to explore this nature, every beautiful creation and every offering of it. But, I never knew how I can grow closer to nature....until one day, while I was playing in the balcony...a young butterfly rested on my shoulder. She had vibrant wings, a delicate lace and an immersing grace...I was fascinated and amazed to see her, just as you all are to listen to my story...I  extended my arm to reach her....she rested on my finger with  an easy motion...I understood...we were friends now!

I went on to explore the nature through her stories  and her flight...through the trees, through the rivers...into the busy lanes...I lived moments learning the greenery of life, busy ways of people, innocence of a child...until one day, when the butterfly decided to fly away....I was left with no reason to understand....

I continued to explore the world I was introduced to...to live with memories, with hope that she will return. Few years later, as I rested on the green meadow...I was greeted by her again...my butterfly...who rested on my forehead....

My joy knew no bounds, I was happy to see her back in my life...I was excited to think of life I shall live with her as company...we were friends again...I was happy to see myself immersing in life again...reaching out to various gifts of nature...listening to the music of the gentle breeze, the warmth in the rising sun....chill that the winter rain brings....

One day, as we were about to set out ...she was cold with no emotion...she no longer responded my calls to pave the way...neither was she interested to hear my stories...she wanted me to let go...she wanted to fly away...

When I want to explore this nature any more, I will have to do it on my own again...I understood,  I ..me ...myself will have to set my life free, if it  happens to come back...it will be forever...and if it did not, it was never bound to be.

I set her free...with a flutter, her wings flapped...and she rose, higher and higher. My heart palpitated as I stood watching her move away....will I ever be able to see her again? I never know "

The Children continued to stare at me in amazement...one of them raised his hand, but he was silent with his innocent gaze fixed on me. For a minute, he spoke nothing... and then he said, "Will the butterfly come back?"

" I do not know, I have all my life to wait...with hope", I said.

I - Opener

Rubric Note: There are no great debates against the argument which is presented in this post. Hence, it is a sincere request that you should not, therefore, find yourself in passionate disagreement with the post. However, try not to find yourself in passive agreement with it either.

I wish to speak of that phase in my life, when I had a sense of insecurity, along with guilt, pain, stress and lack of love...The foundation that one needs, to understand, grow and condition themselves to take on responsibilities is always crucial. It becomes important to understand that our actions will always have a bearing on our future. I seek to learn from my mistakes, respect life and the lessons I was offered to learn from. My early years were greatly influenced by my father, and I still continue to appreciate and feel  his presence, I understand every experience I am put through is an attempt to help me grow as a person...I lived my early life with a sense of carelessness, and then with a sense of caution...and for few years now, I allowed my heart to guide me...I have had immense happiness to allow myself to immerse into life with completeness and sincerity. I realized that, where there is light, there shall exist a shadow. Shadows tell a tale of light...they speak of absence of light, dark spots caused by impenetrable emotions we choose to hide. In this world of manifestation, there exists a constant struggle between shadow and light. And in my struggle, I lost ...shadow won...Now, I stand emptied seeking light....

 

While most of the people who went/ are going through this phase hustle through their lives to seek a new beginning...but I chose to stay even when I was treated with no respect...to understand, respect the moment... and if possible rekindle hope, but I understood that it is very difficult to rekindle hope if one carries around anger, frustration and disappointment...I learnt to forgive myself, forgive others and set them free...only then I understand I will be more willing and open to accept life and enjoy it. I do not regret my decision to stay...I learnt life...and wait to see light of the day again. 

SimplyJITH: Schmaltz of Life

Visiting my own lane of thought....once again

PrecociousTruth : Unrequited Love

Today, I wish to speak on a topic which is often discussed...and yet there is much left unsaid and for us to learn...Love.

I have always believed emotions are very powerful and it is beyond human capacity to truly describe  them. With this said, I wish to make a humble attempt to speak of love... Love is an emotion....emotion that shall bring value to our existence...emotion, thought of which gives us the strength to seek beyond what is humanly possible.Thoughts that will never seize to bring a smile on our faces...an emotion, essential to grow with, live on and to rest in peace...love...

Today, I wish to tell an untold story...a story that had everything but time, time to allow love to blossom into its full strength...a story, about the perfect love we all seek, the imperfect love we all live with...a story, with emotions that must be kept in cages, forever now...a story, full of hope, but tethered down...a story, dignity and love do not blend well, nor do they continue long together...a story, with fears that are gathered in the darkest corners, unspoken and hidden away forever...

- Abhijith Jayanthi

October 2009

 P.S. : This is the prologue for my book with the same title (not yet published). This work has taken a long time (from being just a draft)....7 Months. Emotions occupy a special space in my heart...so does this post.

You / Me

In the absence of Gentlemen...Ladies,

It is indeed an honor and a privilege to stand before you today. I am asked to talk on 'How non-Islamic youth see Islam and its influence on the present day world ?'  Before I proceed to share with you, the influence of Islam to provide the rationale for individual and social behavioral patterns in the present day world, I wish to draw your attention to an important, and rather unnoticed aspect of our life... the divide between all external factors including society (you) and you as a person, your consciousness (me)....

One of my favorite authors, Paulo Coelho, in one of his works said, and I quote; "If all the words were joined together, they wouldn't make sense, or, at the very least, they'd be extremely hard to decipher. The spaces are crucial" It is important that one understands the space between the social setup we have all put together for ourselves and the true and innocent consciousness of our own. In living our lives, we are always through a constant struggle to learn, understand and live by various rules of society. In our attempt to be an acceptable social being, we never really explored the basis for all these so called rules. Sea  happens to be a collection of drops of water, and is nothing if we try to see it without understanding the value of  every individual drop. Similarly, society is a set of people.. a set of individuals like us. When we see society as a collection of such individuals, we start to recognize that all the social patterns are nothing but opinion of various individuals...To understand and respect the power or the consciousness of a society...we need to understand and respect the individuality of every being. 

The belief that each and everyone of us are an essential part and a manifestation of the universal light (Allah - may His name be praised) is seen through the five pillars of  Islam. The first of the five, speak of how Allah - may His name be praised has chosen  Prophet Muhammad to lead others to understand the beauty around them. The second, speaks of recognizing the power of collective worship..to understand that each and everyone of us are a part of the Universal light and respecting everyone's role in the act of worship is recognizing the marvels of Universal Light (Allah - may His name be praised). The act of charity and fasting during the holy month of Ramadan speak of our respect for each other...to understand that each and everyone  of us are here with a purpose and that we all are manifestations of the Universal Light...it becomes important for us to consider and understand the various aspects of life...to truly understand how we are spaced in our lives...and to respect in complete honesty ...dignity and individuality of everything around us. The act of pilgrimage speaks of our acceptance of Universal Light (Allah - may His name be praised) as the sole authority and that this society...a set of individuals who are a part of the Universal Light and that their opinion (rules of society) are all in a way...acts of guiding us by Universal Light (Allah - may His name be praised)

 

Friends, no lamp is lit in order to hide it behind the door....each and everyone here is a manifestation of the divine light ...with a purpose, to reveal the beauty, happiness and joy around. I invite you to explore this thought, understand your purpose and lead others...Let there be light!

Eid Mubarak!

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This post is a part of the talk on the auspicious occasion of Eid by Abhijith Jayanthi at Tehran, Iran in 2009. It has been modified into a commentary to include explanations needed. © Copyrights Reserved.

Nihilism : Self

I have been a firm believer that status quo is not a pleasant option and that dialogue helps us find a solution. In regard to any issue, my primary approach was always to establish dialogue and understand the objectives of both the parties involved. It is important that we initiate a dialogue and arrive at a consensus.

Friends, from my experiences...I have understood, to initiate a dialogue will show a sign of weakness and people do not seem to respect your interest to seek a possible solution, but you might well be subjected to false accusations. and any ensuing dialogue...your attempt to bring out the reality will be seen as an attempt to

explain your reasons for something which is not true in the first place.

It is even tougher when you wish to initiate a dialogue with parties that believe in double standards...different rules for self and others. The dialogue will always leave you with a taste of grief. It is always a tough choice to make..whether to  initiate a dialogue with a possibility that you might lose your respect (be falsely accused or seen as a sign of weakness) or do nothing and live in pain....

Lousy Souls....

 

Please Note: This is an open letter dedicated to all Lousy Souls...The letter has enough suggestive description, if you are wondering who is such a soul... If you happen to know any lousy soul, do not allow them to miss this dedicated letter of mine....

Dear Lousy Soul,

Only if you could have told me about things honestly (I understand you do not have the habit of speaking the truth ever and nothing about you is true)... things would have been just the same as they are now... but more at  peace and I would have not felt as being used at least...

I am not writing this letter  to vent my emotions, threaten you or to ask you to consider anything. I feel it was not your fault..but mine.. I lost sight of reality and the real you...and when I think of it...it definitely was not worth my struggle... For you as a person, I have nothing against you now...let god alone judge you...

For the stories you have told me, I understand they have no significance anymore but even then ... I am not really sure if any of them is indeed true... but I understand my story was painfully true and I am put through it for a reason... and you happen to be a mere instrument to make me learn something...

I want to thank you for it...I am not really sure if you will read this letter ever....but even if you do...you will never change from being a lousy soul... will you?

peace..
abhijith

Phase : Cleansing Self

I wish to call this phase of my life as "Cleansing Self" . Anecdotes often influence the decisions we make in life. Today, I happen to read the commentaries by Adi Sankaracharya (an Indian Philosopher who consolidated the doctrine of Advaita Vedanta) According to legend, while on his way to the Vishwanath Temple, Sankara came upon an untouchable (people who were traditionally regarded as low caste in those days) accompanied by four dogs. When asked to move aside by Shankara's disciples, the untouchable replied: "Do you wish that I move my ever lasting Self (Soul) or this body made of flesh?" 

This incident made Shankara realize the meaning of life. He went on to write a commentary on Arishadvarga — the six passions of mind (desires),  which are kama (lust), krodha (anger), lobha (greed), moha (delusion), mada (pride) and matsarya (jealousy), the negative characteristics which prevent man from realizing his destiny. Lust and anger are responsible for all kinds of difficult experiences which we have in our lives.With the false ego up and active, all our acting in the world becomes selfish and evil. Hence there is no other factor causing the illusory duality and the repeated pain and delusion it entails than the psychological ego-sense. When the materially identified ego has sided with the materialistic forces of creation, it is said to showcase evil passions, man's spiritual heritage constantly gets looted by these internal influences (and their numerous variations), causing him to lose knowledge of his true self.  

I have come to understand more about what I am as a person, and where I stand at present. Since past few years, situations and events in my life transformed me from being a purer soul to someone I don't identify myself with. I have had people in my life who have taken advantage of me and my emotions. I have myself to blame, for I was weak and factors of trust, doubt, hatred, anger, pride, jealousy and delusion controlled my emotions, thoughts and hence my decisions. All these negative emotions have made me weak as a person, susceptible to others. Through this years, I always thought why others were behaving the way they did and I was trying to correct them. This resulted in a lot of negative thoughts being build up within me which include frustration, sympathy for self, helplessness, rejection of self. I was not able to forgive others, holding them responsible for the actions. 

I now realize that I was wrong. It is not for them to change, but that I need to change. I have allowed myself to be used, abused (mentally and emotionally) because I was driven by the thoughts of deceit, hatred, self pity and no self dignity. I have given away my power and allowed others to destroy my entity because of these negative thoughts. 

I wish to learn from my experiences....But, before I proceed, it is important that I make a conscious attempt to forgive those, who have had the opportunity to hurt me.  I realize that it is not their fault but mine. I understand from what I learnt, I do not wish to hold anyone else responsible, I wish to take responsibility for my actions and my life. I want to work on growing over my negative influences and seek purity of thought. 

Friends...wish me luck!

కైవల్యము...

 

Note: This is one of 32000 works of Sri Tallapaka Annamacharya

Creativity Unplugged!

When do we decide it is about time to seek change? Before we get there, we should probably be discussing the issue of reality. Only when we understand what reality is, we can do justice in regard what needs to change. Friends, what is reality? It is important to understand that what we see/hear is not reality...fools and fanatics are always certain of themselves/ their beliefs, but wiser people question what is presented to them and then evaluate. I invite you to take part in this social experiment...evaluate people/issues in your life to understand this idea.

Let me elaborate further, before you proceed to understand people in your life...it is important to notice how the factor of trust is intertwined with respect for our own mental faculties. We tend to create a bubble of comfort around every relationship in our lives. We tend to believe in...trust the other person... respect what is told to us on its face value and believe that it is true...or strictly avoid a certain person depending on the kind of bubble we have created for our relationship with that person...There will be instances when people whom you had faith in...give you enough reasons...not to trust them anymore...thus, breaking the bubble...Now, please look into your own lives and evaluate your bubbles of comfort with people around you...people who matter to you....

Do you find every bubble is what it is truly worth ? I appreciate your faculties of judgment...Do you find few bubbles have a scar or two ...and then you wish to work on them ..to restore them, back to normal?  Are you responsible for the scar ? Are you willing to change? It is possible...and this is the change you need to seek... If you are not responsible for the scar...are you ready to forgive? This is the change you need to seek...All the Best...

Did few bubbles get burst? Did someone repeatedly puncture your bubble of trust ? This is not reason enough to be harsh on your own self and question your faculties of judgment...it is an indication to let go...this is the change you need seek...Intelligent people learn from their mistakes...never to do it again...and  last but not the least...if you happen to be someone who can never be trusted , you have  lived a life of deceit hurting others and your attitude is beyond repair...then it is time you do some serious introspection...this is the change you need to seek ...and I invite you to read one of my other posts here which might be of some help to understand my reasons to a possible question of why you need to change?

All the Best!

My Faith...

Please Note : This post is to record few principles of what I see as my faith. I invite the readers to examine it and present their opinion.

Before I proceed, I wish to spend some time talking about my definition of faith...The noun fish can be construed as singular or plural. Similarly, faith is a combination of beliefs, principles and values. We as social beings, live in a religiously pluralist world, with each and every one of us interacting with different religions/ teachings in our own way...and all our experiences frame our faith which is our own.

I believe every being is a small component of Universal Energy, which is seen in/as various forms according to different religions/beliefs. As a newly born child, each of us is given a role to play, a puzzle to answer, a task to complete. In our efforts to achieve what we are destined for, we are allowed to make choices...This I believe is our real test called life. I have come to believe with my experiences...God (Universal Energy) is always kind...we are never tested/judged on whether or not we will be able to identify our destiny...our duty for which we are given an opportunity..but we are judged on the choices we make. in our efforts..I have always believed to see the bigger picture...with every moment...every experience we encounter, as a hint given to us to seek our destiny...

While our choices frame one half of what we are judged on, emotions make up the other half of judgment... our intentions are more important than our actions...when we are to choose,  it is important to respect  emotions...sincerity and honesty in our intention will always reflect on our respect for emotions. When you fail to be sincere and honest in your intentions, and hence show no respect for emotions (of your own and that of others)...your soul loses its purity and thus punished...

It is always an interesting question to ask, when others around us have no moral values,  are ethically challenged  and  have least  regard for my emotions, why do I have to still respect their emotions? Everyone of us is given a role to play, and we script our own ways to achieve what we are destined for....we are not asked to judge others, we are to be sincere in our efforts, honest in our approach  and respect emotions...thus grow closer to Universal Energy and possibly reunite with it...while those who fail to be sincere and honest...will lose respect and dignity... and will be punished in a befitting manner....for impure souls will burn in the glow of Universal Flame (Universal Energy..which is purest in its behavior and judgment...we all need to strive to achieve its purity to reunite with it)

This is my faith...I always choose (to the best of my knowledge) to be sincere and honest in  my approach and intention...respect emotions...and those who wish to not value my emotions...I believe will be critically punished and awarded with the kind of respect they truly deserve...

Sincerely (and in complete honesty)

Abhijith....

Dowry : Stand up against it!

India, as a country represents multitude of  thoughts, variety of approaches for solving pressing  issues.One such issue, is the system of dowry. For the uninitiated, Dowry is the payment in cash or/and kind by the bride's family to the bridegroom' s family, one of many practices which are seen as rather, a normal routine during an Indian marriage. The practice of dowry abuse is rising in India. The most severe in “bride burning”, the burning of women whose dowries were not considered sufficient by their husband or in-laws. Most of these incidents are reported as accidental burns in the kitchen or are disguised as suicide. It is evident that there exist deep rooted prejudices against women in India. 

Cultural practices such as the payment of dowry tend to subordinate women in Indian society. Worse still, women who might have been subjected to this practice do  not invest time in thinking twice, when it comes to marriages of their sons...

 We wish to gather the support of all those who think that this system is a curse to humanity, and those who pledge to stand against this system prevalent in the Indian society. Let us all join hands against this crime, become more socially responsible for a happy existence for each and everyone of us. Be human and let us spread this word as much as we can.. Show your support, join us on facebook here

Saree : Sensuous Celebration

For me, women in sarees speak of sensuous celebration....
The thought still continues to impress me....

Please do read my previous post on Saree as well here.

Memoirs of a moment....

Its been a year now...yet the fragrance of the moment will live on forever....This post is a mark of my salutation for this moment ...I love it...

Avowal Series : Second Edition

Dear Mom,

Elegant shades on any canvas...speak of varied influences (both negative and positive). I present my true reflections of such influences on my canvas..influences which have destroyed/ cut short my growth as a person...influences which helped me grow as a person. I wish to acknowledge both these influences...I understand without the negatives...I probably will not have been able to appreciate the positives in my life....I understood there are emotions which are far more supreme than trust, love, betrayal and hatred...' Dignity of Thought & Soul '  is the theme for this edition of Avowal Series... I salute and respect everyone for their influences on my self...This work is my dedication for your support. 

With dignity...

Abhijith

 

Photo Credits: The image on display is the cover image for the second edition of Avowal Series. It has been designed by Tripti. Copyrights Reserved.

Soldier of Love...

Sometimes.. music/voice is a better mode of expression.....

I Recommend : Soldier of Love

Note: This pic is from my personal collection. Copyrights reserved.

What in life is worth a wait ?

One day, I woke up to a text update of status tags...The line happens to be the status message on my sister's facebook account...What in life is worth a wait? Interesting question....

Time brings back anecdotes to celebrate the moment... and certain lines like these add value. I have come to believe in destiny with complete faith. Most of my life, events / moments have been so random that when I tend to see them piece by piece they would make no real sense, but when I wish to put together a chain of events, it brings me more happiness to see how destiny has been playing a silent game of putting together pieces of jigsaw called life for me.

I wish to talk about moments which I had to wait for  8 years to come true... and I shall cherish them for rest of my life and beyond. Moments which presented me with happiness of thought and my existence. This post is to record my emotion of existence : March 11- 14.

Each emotion is filled in with moments...I have seen the high and understand every true emotion will touch a low...not to die down but to rise again to give us the freshness of it and cherish it even more. Destiny happens to be a critical examiner...pushes me deep into thought before presenting me with happiness of emotion....I have come to believe in destiny, because I strongly believe in my emotions.... Destiny  demands patience and sincerity, and then shall place back the moment, and let in freshness...

Friends, this in life is worth a wait...and I shall wait...

Please Note : Its You....

Stunning beauty that I could ever imagine,

is realized by my eyes.

So closely pulled onto my heart that I could hear,

the silent whisper in my ears.

The temple bells ring...announcing the much awaited arrival that I am astonished,

to understand that you are so immensely inspiring.

If only one could see it so closely as I did.

Dignity : Isolation

All I said...

Pick no flowers,

plant no roses at my side.

All I asked for...

When I am silent,

speak to me from your heart.

All I wish...

Respond to you perhaps,

but I leave it to you to appreciate its need.

All I seek...

An alternative,

when silence is not preferred.

All I promise...

I shall be so,

while you speak with your eyes.

All I shall be...

Unfortunately still breathing,

living in isolation amidst people around.

Destiny Reorganized!

At this juncture in my life, I wish to speak about how everyone of us wish to sit down and understand where we are headed with our life. Its a mix of independent and collective effort to understand our lives. Society is an interesting fabric. It gives us an opportunity to learn from our experiences but it is not helpful in reaching out to ourselves in the past.

All what used to be ... I am assured will never be the same again... All that I wish to have... I understand will never be within my reach....

Dignity : Souls & Humans...

Man is a free agent; but he is not free if he does not believe it, for the more power he attributes to Destiny, the more he deprives himself of the power which God granted him when he gave him reason...

- Giacomo Casanova

It is important for us to seek and protect our own dignity rather than blame destiny. It is more about our conscious efforts than anything else. Seek and you shall find.....

M.A.D....

Note: Please note that this post has no knowledge or research support from medical or psychological Studies. It is more of a personal observation of mine.

M.A.D... as I wish to put it is Multiple Attitude Disorder. I have seen many people in my life suffer from the above mentioned disorder. Firstly, let me discuss what I mean by M.A.D... Multiple Attitudes in simple setting is about how a certain someone tend to showcase different attitudes towards another certain someone depending on equation, circumstances, surroundings, situations which are all time bound. Without any personal bias, this is mostly observed in girls.

It is interesting to understand how this disorder tends to influence not only their attitude but also their decisions, actions and way they treat others. It is imperative to question ourselves whether or not we are needed to speak/be present in such situations when they arise. Most of the times it is a sudden attack of anger/ strong emotion that tilts the balance of a normal being to portray M.A.D. I strongly believe that such attacks if in minimal numbers add value to the emotion and also to the relation. But when such attacks happen to be more frequent and tend to create more disturbances than ripples, it is important to realize, that person needs some serious professional help....

Next time around, when someone says I am going M.A.D .... you know whom you are dealing with :)

Reaching Out ...

There is a constant need to understand ourselves. I wish to reach to that person...me within myself......

May be...at the start we were supposed to see all the sad moments in life/ meet all the wrong-deceitful-false pride-lying is the only thing i can do-people/ get treated badly by life for being nice-humble-polite-caring/ be handled and spoken to rudely  by life even when you valued the moment and invested your soul into it/ be let down by life ...before life smiles at you/ meeting the right people/ treated with dignity and respect/ life gives you all that you truly deserve/ rewards for your sincerity-honesty-speaking the truth-being righteous...so that we can appreciate the gift when life presents it to us.

Finally,  I made a conscious and painful decision to start working towards it. Wish me luck!

Dad....

I hope that you will always know, 

whatever I do, wherever I go 

there is one thing I will never outgrow, 

and that is my love for you...

In our eyes you hung the moon, 

no child could have ever ask God

for a better dad than you were to us. 

We loved you then, and we love you still! 

Our eyes might not be able to look 

upon your gentle loving face,
but if we look with our hearts 

we still see your love.

I love you dad and miss you even more.

This is not a work of mine but something I deeply connect to ...

I allow you to die alone ...

Everyone of us may have been through a period in our lives when we constantly question ourselves in regard to whether it was our responsibility that we ended up in the situation that we found ourselves in. Our constant battle with self in regard to finding a solution to the present situation will be lost in such a scenario. You tend to question your own ability to conquer and gain control over the situation. It becomes critical for us to believe in ourselves and understand that we were not wrong in our actions and that our expectations from ourselves and others were not met. This critical understanding of the situation is always needed. 

It is interesting that I wish to discuss a certain event in everyone's life i.e. death today. Friends, kindly do not get cynical and think that I hold a pessimistic view about life and death is all that I look forward to. No, the context in which this issue is discussed is in regard to that situation in our lives when we felt we were cheated by life, others and everything that is not us, and that we ended up in a situation where we cannot trust anyone and more so we are constantly struggling to find reasons to support an equation when it is already put to rest by forces beyond our control. It is important for most of us to realize that we are not wrong in our attempts to solve the equation. It is an attempt, a test by the divine power to make us realize what we are worth, friends it is important to understand we are our own torch-bearers and we alone can make or change our destiny and the way we wish to live our life. 

Many moments in my life, I have felt a strong urge to be critical about how others are, in regard to what they are as a person. I have met many people in my life who are big time losers, probably the word loser is a pretty decent way to describe their filthy trends of being ignorant, dumb and  challenged in regard to virtues.  I have noticed a common trend in all these unfortunate souls, they tend to create a false world around themselves, live in a false impression about living the life in good spirit, pretty low on self discipline and interestingly they offer dignity for happiness. A strong belief that false claims and ability to lie is seen as virtue by these friends of stupidity with very low regard to themselves and inability to understand that they are worth  far less than any small value of existence known to mankind. It is critical to realize that  these people who are pretty low in regard to self respect and character tend to use us as a tissue to grow over their fears. And many a time, we are left with a feeling of being treated with no respect. This, in my belief is the reason when most of us might have misunderstood our own abilities of being understanding enough to respect such beings who live life of deceit and concealment.

Friends, let us allow them to die alone ...

What Am I ? ART of being me

 

Note:  This post will deal with introduction of a concept of  Anticipation (Argument) - Review  (Reconciliation) - Trust yourself (Treated with Dignity). It is an attempt to understand how we need to evaluate the interest of a person we are in an argument with, in regard to arriving at a possible solution for a problem/issue at hand. 

When you feel a situation is beyond the possible human attempt to work on, and it is only leading to an emotional drain and being ill treated by life? It is always a known trend to anticipate, expect a certain reaction or certain scenario in regard to how things are and will be in the future. This is the anticipation phase of our solution analysis. This phase leads us into review mode and take stock of things. It is during this stage that we will be able to understand/judge the interest of the other parties involved in arriving at a solution. There is a strong possibility that everyone needs to compromise and arrive at a consensus for everyone to be happy. This phase is the most important of the three phases because it will define the value of yours. It is critical to understand that agreeing for a compromise is not about being ill treated but it is about our interest and sincere appreciation of the partnership/relationship/certain something which is under the review scanner now. 

This phase is followed by a critical phase of defining the way forward. It is always essential that you should trust yourself and do not let others/life/situations ill treat you and put you to a lower dignity. The essence of a happy life is about how we go about defining our dignity in the spaces we operate. It is interesting to notice and appreciate the fact that many times you wish to go the extra distance for its worth it. It definitely is, but if its an unfortunate situation that only you alone are trying hard while nature is forcing things away from you, then it is about time to recognize that nature and life is the best judge of the situation and everything does happen for a reason. It takes courage to let go and work on yourself for being a better person. Take every opportunity available to make the most of it. When life seems to be unfair and is forcing you to live on its terms in pain and being unhappy. It is more than just the need to change the situation...it is about how you should trust yourself and have faith in your ability. Its all about the question of whether or not you know the ART of living your life....Do you have the answer?

P.S.: This post has taken considerable amount of time and  I have recorded my observations at every phase of the process. True with any situation,  it is important to notice that the process is a long  drawn one. It is important that we respect it rather than hurrying ourselves into the next phase of the process.

Good Bye...

A Friend of mine shared this piece ... I realize its intent now ... I wanted to share it with readers of my blog.. The following lines are that of my friend....

ok...I know its strange that I am quoting an Ugly Betty episode, but this is too good to not pass on:

I've had to say goodbye more times than I would have liked. But everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we do it, even when if its for the greater good, it still stings. And though we'll never forget what we've given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we cant do is live our lives always afraid of the next goodbye, because chances are they're not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a goodbye can be a good thing, when its a chance to start again.

Take it for what its worth for you!

I Forgive You...

All through these years, I have learnt to understand how to identify the true intent of  a person and see if he/she is a friend or someone whom I should avoid. But today, as I look back at my life and recent years, I have come to believe that I have avoided many people because of  varied reasons...I wish to try my best to forgive all those who have had a negative impact on me or anything related to me. With this attempt, I wish to move on in life, being more happier with myself, my life and my existence in harmony to what all that life has given me and will give me in the future...

Mood : Pensive & Repulsive

 "In our obsession with original sin, we do forget ... original innocence"

 - Pope Innocent, of Assisi                     

     

It is always a tough decision to make : when things keep coming back at you, and yet you need to move on and  seek life with all consciousness. It is an understanding which is influenced by the quality of life I had, I wish to have and my firm belief to see my family and loved ones happy.

When it is tough to hold yourself ...let go yourself. It is always an innocent reflection of our thoughts when we see ourselves angry at an issue which we never really realize the true value of. What seems to be worth today, might not be, of the same value tomorrow. All that life has given you is a chance to be you, if you wish to seek reasons to live, it is definitely not worth it. Embrace life with open arms and experience its warmth, believe in yourself...all that you always want to be, you already are...what is needed is a sense of understanding, faith on your methods and a self respectful YOU!

Life...

Note: Friends this post is about how we need to understand ourselves and see life. It is not about being practical, but it is more about seeing life from a different focus point sometimes. This post is my attempt to understand from my own experiences. I hope the readers will benefit from it.

Life is not about practicality. It is more about understanding the value and the necessity of three important questions : how? when? why? Most of us are of the firm belief that prioritizing our activities/life is the key to success. But in this post, I shall attempt to bring to your notice that it is not a key to success but it is a key to failure.

Did you ever feel you always were doing things according to a plan, and yet you dont seem to get what you intend to achieve. You see people around you, lesser in regard to talent, skillset, effort...happy with their lives?  Well, did you always question yourself why does it happen to you, why do things dont go according to your plan? Well friends, the answer is nature. Nature is responsible for what happens around us, against us and also for us. It is unfortunate but it is true, nature likes chaos. Nature appreciates confusion.

If we wish to disturb the confusion, by trying to align our targets, our lives... we fall out from the nature's plan and our targets slip down the priority list for nature to accommodate.  It is easier to see life as it is, and understand that rather than controlling it, allow it to take the lead. Give it a chance to lead, and you shall see it will give you immense happiness. Friends, what will be... will be. It is easier to go easy on yourself rather than  get depressed with life. Allow life a chance .. that is the key to success. Allow yourself the joy of being what nature has planned for you...Seek and you shall be get...dream and you shall achieve...allow yourself to lose grip of life... and it will cling onto you.

Forget for a moment, that you exist...experience life with open hands...and friends there lies your happiness.. go for it!

A Moment...

P.S. : This moment has no further explanation....

Just One Chance : Lets Dance Again...

Fill my world,

with silence and surprise,

when I shall regain your sunrise.

Decorate my sky,

with stars and the moon,

when you shall be my zest for life soon.

Reward my wait,

with your laughter and joy,

my woman : beautiful than Helen of Troy.

Hatred...

Ask, and it shall be given to you; 

seek, and you shall find;

knock and it shall be opened unto you.

For every one that asketh receiveth;

and he that seeketh findeth;

and to him that knocketh, it shall be opened.

                            

                                     - Bible [Matthew 7:7-8]

 

Why is it that there is hate in this world ? It is interesting to see how we do not really understand the reason for this emotion. Love and hate are two emotions which are never really understood properly by anyone. Every person who walks on this planet earth have shades of positive and negative traits. It is rather difficult to arrive at a conclusion to judge a person completely....and then there is the element of time, what seems to be wrong or a bad trait can be gone, never to return and thus the person is a rejuvenated being, eligible for love. 

 

It is important to understand : Love the being and hate the quality, for it offers us happiness.

Sometimes, it is essential that we let go the past and embrace our present, for it offers us eternal peace and a happy future...for ourselves, our loved ones, family and friends..

Amen!

Together...All is Well...

Together we have solutions to our problems,

together we will find them within us...

Together is for being there for each other,
Together we define each other...

In the infinity of life where we are,

all will be perfect, whole and complete.

I believe in a power far greater than we are

that flows through us every moment of every day.

I open us to the wisdom within,

knowing that there is only One Intelligence in this Universe.

Out of this One Intelligence comes all the answers,

all the solutions, all the healing, all the new creations.

I trust this Power and Intelligence,

knowing that whatever we need to know is revealed to us,

and that whatever we need comes to us

in the right time, space and sequence.

All will be well in our world.

Transformation : W-O-M-A-N

Polite Note : Ladies amongst my readers, it is a sincere request to understand that this post is not about how impactful the transition of feminine power was on the society in the recent past, but it is more about the disgusting reality about how few amongst you are misled and are creating a havoc in otherwise peaceful threads of this fabric called society...please kindly restrain from venting your emotions about how supportive you are about the transition which I shall rightly criticize.... men, read on for I sincerely request you to learn about this aspect, because I have come to understand most of the women fall under this category and are if not anything else are ruining your lives...

Firstly friends, I choose to present this post without any image support that will help you understanding the emotion running through the post, because I felt disgust is an extreme emotion and needs no support to express itself. I am not an advocate of  anti-feminine initiatives, if any of you are seriously considering this thought, please do not read any further. Woman as she started out, centuries ago was mostly regarding as wife of a man (w/o-man) and revolutionary practices have seen them now live a life of with out a man (w/o-man). If any of you feel this is not the transition, thank god you do not belong to that set of women whom I am talking about in this post, please read on because they need your help to realize the truth. Most of us friends, I mean men... have come across women who tend to create an identity crisis for herself and subject you to unjust treatment because it is a disgusting fact which we need to live with, women are always right even if she is dumb headed to speak innocently and tell us that sun rises in the west... indeed it is , isn't  it friends? 

Life seems to be a stupid experience when we wish to live a life dictated by a woman who is  little if not completely challenged in regard to her faculties of mental maturity. Transition of freedom of expression for a man will include and is necessary to uphold the dignity of his woman, while for a woman can put her man to shame if that is all that is needed to satisfy her silly wishes... This isn't a post to vent my emotions my dear friends, for men amongst you...will silently agree with me, grow up you sick people! stop being silent about this treatment, dont surrender to stupidity...sun indeed rises in the east... for women amongst the readers, if you happen to understand that it indeed is true with someone who know, I am happy that you are there for her to make her realize how sick she is and that she needs immediate help... if you happen to disagree with this post... I surrender before you ..you are the disgusting woman  I am talking about, you seek no argument because there is nothing but emptiness in between your ears. For all such disgusting women, this post is a salutation to your unique attitude.. please allow others to live their lives!