Soul Connection ...

Life is something which I seem one can never understand . We set out thinking to dictate terms to life but end up following rules set by it! Polluted Heart is a much worse scenario compared to polluted mind. Soul is influenced by the desires of heart, its functioning is enhanced by the thinking of mind. Enhancing purity of soul is favoured by deed and speech of the person within you.. The more pleasant one appears the more closer is your soul for salvation. Character is an exhibit for soul. The more nobler you are.. more eminent is your soul! It is a war between the soul and desire, latter leads to cycle of rebirths and the former will transform you into an universal soul .. So its all boils down to understand "Are we men enough to pick ? "

Thoughts are Forever...

Thinking of my past which was grovelling with unhappiness I try to seek the fruits of my deeds . Giving a second chance to my life I step into the present with a set goal in mind. To understand and reach out to the person within me, I try to transform my thinking into reality. I just want to try once again to cherish the fruits of my deeds which were wasted in the past to bring a fresh look and smile on my face. Everyday I wake up thinking about the same things in the same manner which could well be the beginning of transformation of person within me...

I’M PARTIAL … That’s the way to go!

There seems to be something which helps me in the time of need but I don’t seem to understand the reason or rather I guess I cannot reason out the cause behind every action in this world .Sometimes I seem to get weird questions regarding the basic meaning of life which always remains unanswered . Ever wondered why everything seems to happen to us rather than how to tackle them? We seem to have lost the basic grip why we need to lead such a life!

Everything in this world appears to be materialistic and I guess it truly is. Everything seems to fall in place when I think about why there is divide or rather what is the divide that brings in differences among us? The theory of Karma or Salvation seems to mean sense when we start understanding the meaning of life. Life seems to be completely different when I place myself or rather look into life of others who leads a completely different style of living. From Childhood I use to think why is everyone partial towards someone in this world but I now seem to understand that, when God himself is partial to certain extent after all we are human .. Can we escape from its clutches? Certain things remain unanswered even after pondering over it for long... isn’t it?

You...

You made me,
A blindfold funambulist.
Hanging between the sky and the earth,
Risking the rope and an odd bare foot.

You made me
Feel the warmth of love, in your lacy arms.
Holding me like a mother,
To her nipples.

You made me,
Walk holding your hand along lanes and hills,
Among dust and stones,
On May blooms, under November rains.

You made me,
A reticent contrivance.
Turning my heart into a harp,
One that only you can play.

You made me,
Fathom the power of love.
Trust me dear, I shall be your beau,
And never shall bid you adieu.

I...A Warrior

I stand a warrior,
Not by a granting wand.
It’s the way I slip away from all,
Just like the grains of sand.

I stand a warrior,
Not by a helping hand.
For innocent I stand a reliable friend,
and for the guilty, a fiend.

I stand a warrior,
Not by conquering land.
Stand with me, I shall bind,
For I am kind.

I stand a warrior,
Not by the desire to rule the breed.
Stand against me, such a one is hard to find,
I shall surrender kneeling on my hind.

I stand a warrior,
Not because I won over the world.
But, understand
It’s all in the mind.

To Pakistan...With Love

Sun, moon and the stars at night we stare,
are there for all of us to share.
Why draw boundaries on this planet ?
and build up walls between our hearts.

If anyone suffers from a bruise
no matter where he is from
we should feel the pain of their wounds,
and our eyes should reflect their tears.

Life is beautiful,
and so is this world.
Why to make it unbeautiful,
increasing the distance between our hearts.

Friendship cements with difficulty,
but a mere second can destroy it.
Love is cure for every pain
Its the promise of peace.

Being Loved...

Love…
Your Vitreous Eyes …
neither Sovereign …nor pale…
hiding your innocent flush,
behind a cloud of sweet ignorance.
Why people who wish to conceal their heart,
forget not to reveal their eyes?

Love…
Even a languid glance of contest,
shall leave my heart less troubled.
For it will give a final caress,
to my dreams on the sand
taken away by a powerful billow,
and I stand… a feeble fellow.

Love…
Take off the sheath,
Rekindle the hope of my dying presentiment.
Or is it my fallacy?
For it was your never born thought…

TRANQUILITY: FOCUS

Perhaps every species on this planet has many issues, which are unanswered, humans are no exception. The ability to understand one own self leads us through a pretty complex lane, which has got many by-lanes. Let me start by putting before you a conversation between me and a friend of mine during my initial days at IIT Delhi …

Me: What is that you have gained by coming to this place?
Friend: I feel satisfied for I earned the seat for my hard work.
Me: What next?
Friend: I don’t know.
Me: What do you want to do… I mean what you want to achieve in your life?
Friend: I wish to be an engineer ….a good.no a bright one!
(I didn’t see another being with such an excited face)
Me: How do you know that you are satisfied?
Friend: What sort of question is that?
Me: well let me frame it in a different way.how do you define satisfaction?
Friend: I don’t know how to define it …I am happy for what I got… perhaps that is satisfaction.
Me: So you mean to say you are satisfied with your life?
Friend: No. I was talking about me getting into IIT. You tell me aren’t you satisfied with your life. I mean how do you define satisfaction?
Me: Satisfaction is a relative phenomenon. You feel satisfied till you don’t face a new situation wherein you need to work from scratch… it is time bound. No one can be satisfied with their life throughout. There will be hiccups here and there when you need to work your way through …
Friend: So what you want in life?
Me: I can’t take that question for I don’t know the answer myself.
Friend: neither do I …

The conversation drifted into other topics and died down at 2 in the morning. We still stood at that point where we were searching for the answer to the question what satisfaction is all about?

I had a keen interest to know the answer to the question was, I started observing people around me what is it that made them happy. Content, why is it that me and most of my peers aren’t able to identify what we want from our lives? After a long watch, I can say that many of us who didn’t understand what satisfaction is. …were either unable to recognize what it is or we are undergoing a phase of transformation from being pampered to facing the world ourselves… everything tends to be right…. everything is interesting and appeals to our mind to pursue it. But why is it that we are unable to judge what suits us. What is it that defines satisfaction of the person??

I find it interesting to understand that people tend to frame an opinion about the world depending upon his or her own surroundings, circumstances which were encountered, they tend to react in a manner which is intrinsically related to their way of thinking …. I find it amusing to note that transformation in a person is dependent not only on the above mentioned factors but is also dependent on how one event leads to other. Let us consider an example of a kid who is pampered a lot, he tends to think that everything is easy to achieve, when you get what you want so easily, rarely do we appreciate the fact that it isn’t that easy as it is made out to be , it is always easy to criticize a decision than to arrive at one … this is the fact which I understood when I was thrown into a situation wherein I was judged on the basis of the decision taken…situations which life offers are complex and tend to affect other parameters which we might not even think about.No matter how confident you are about yourself, there are always things that might surprise you about your own self.. just like vast spreads of water in the sea doesnt stop it from being thirsty.. its only that rivers understand it..

Her Eyes...

The round lips of the night...
Swept away, jealous,
the stars from the sky...
for the very first time became green ..
in your eyes.. my love!

All That I Wish ...

I’m here ...waiting

Impatiently, eyes full of tears,

The other day you said you loved me

You said it perfectly clear.

Now, today’s a new day

And you’re not here by my side,

Now everything you told me

Just feels like pain and lies.

You said you would be here forever

Was that just a lie, too?

You made promises you couldn’t keep

I had all my faith in you.

You took off with my heart

And life in your hands,

I’m left empty and incomplete

Why can’t you understand?

You let me down

When my hopes went high,

I try to smile

But I always sigh.

I’m left alone

With all the pain and misery,

Your love is all I ask for

Why can’t you see?

You loved me for who I was

Not for whom I tried to be,

You were the best thing that happened to me

You’ll always be with me.

We’ve been through too much

For you to push me away’

I’ll always love you no matter what

Trust me Love...It will never fade away.

Saga of Life

It was that day in my life ,
I understood what life is all about ,
Life is a meandering wave with
something to lose and something to gain.

A mere balance of credentials and liabilities,
with a piece for all...

Sometimes I seem to think everything is nothing
But then I realize there is a thing in nothing too
I tend to believe that what we seem to
believe is what belief is all about.

At the end of the day ,
I see nothing that interests me but to live
but then this life has made me think...

what is life all about except for knowing self
now I understand life is nothing
except understanding the person within you,
and nothing else!

Human Integrity Vs Thinking

Ever wondered what did you get out of your life? What this life is all about? Did you ever wonder why everything is happening only to you rather than how to tackle them? Well I did and I would like to put my experiences before you so that you can appreciate these thoughts.

When I was a small kid I had this weird doubt of how we feel, how we reciprocate and communicate using emotions, is there something within us which makes us feel the way we do? I use to wonder whatever had happened had any bearing on what is happening and what will be happening in the days to come? I felt there is a person within every one of us who is trying to reach out. I felt there is something which makes everyone responds to the basic feelings of living beings.

Initially I didn’t respect the value attached with such ideas, but slowly as I started investigating my own self, I happen to meet a person within my own self who had a different perspective on every issue that bothered me. This made me think about others, are they facing the same situation, I wanted to enquire but then I was small so no one seemed to be interested in what I said.

But then I always wanted to know how this thinking helps in human integrity? Perhaps you might be wondering what I mean by integrity? Well I would appreciate such a thought because I feel it is the starting of this new dimension where you get to meet the unknown in a known frame. Human integrity is something which makes us different from one another. The ability to communicate what you think, ability to converse, and ability to be part of various activities is not integrity, integrity is something which is associated with the feeling 'How well do I know myself?' Did you ever ask yourself that question? If no, ask it now and if yes what was the reply that you have got?

From what I have gathered, I would like to admit I have seen many people having conflict with their own self, they seem to be different, behave differently than what they actually like to be. Emotions have an intricate role to play to bring out the person within us. Ever tried to interpret human emotions?

The conflict between what you think, what you feel seems to grow day by day. Our moves are instrumental in molding our thoughts but are we doing the right thing? Perhaps you might brush this aside saying that they are nature's rhapsodies but then why don’t we make a sincere effort in understanding what we really are? Instead of being confused about things what can’t we be certain about what we do, what we think, why can’t we understand the person within our own self. Everything seems to be within us, even then we are unable to find answers for many questions we have.

Life is something which I seem one can never understand, we set out thinking about dictating terms to life but end up following rules set by it, why don’t we put an effort to understand ourselves instead of giving life a try?

Dream - A Strange One

Whatever we do, whatever we think about the whole day seems to influence what we dream about. Perhaps you might agree with me on that. Before I proceed I would like to know whether you believe in interpreting a dream.

Well, that day me and few of my friends were talking about how hypocritical this society has become? This discussion had an impact on me and I had a dream which really changed my outlook towards life. I shall describe my dream to the detail possible.

It was a chilly night; the scene was set in a garden in town. I noticed a man in his later 60's strolling down a badly lit pathway and he reclined on a bench which was unattended to for many years. I saw his grin face which had few wrinkles and it appeared to me that the man was thinking about something. Before I could figure out anything more, I noticed a procession moving across the pathway in front of the bench. It was a procession of a dead man. The man on the bench shifted his attention from blades of grass near his feet to the procession moving before him. I saw a twinkle in his eyes and sadness dawned on him suddenly. Perhaps he knew that man and was really close to him. He started to recollect what had happened in the past.

The man who was dead was a pious man, who helped the town in many ways; he was instrumental in putting many innovative ideas into practice. He was the sole earner for his family of 2 brothers and a sister and their children. But after hearing to this I could not digest the fact that his final walk was not attended to by any of his siblings whom he protected and helped. The corpse was moved away by few people, the man on the bench started to move towards the place where the man who died had lived.

There I could see nothing but few people fighting among themselves. It was a quarrel over possession of property which belonged to the man who died. It made me think how selfish are people becoming, how they are putting property and money at a higher value than life. Jealousy, hatred, inferiority / superiority complexes I felt are the feelings which the people have. The man had tears in his eyes thinking about what was happening at that place, he felt bad about how people have become so self centered that they have nothing for others, they care nothing for others. He walked back to the bench thinking about the help rendered by the man who died to others.

He helped many people in time of need, he was passionate about town and helped in making it a better place but he felt no one seems to recognize the contributions of such a man. He became cynical and started questioning himself what had he done in life? What made him do that? These thoughts influenced the man to change his approach towards life. But the very thought made him cry. I could not understand why he was crying. After few minutes he wiped his tears and walked back the way he came and disappeared in the dark.

After few moments of quizzing myself I came to know that he was none other than the man who died and he was analyzing his life. These thoughts disturbed my sleep and I woke up to notice how life seems to move on without recognizing the contributions of many such people.