Memoirs of a moment....

Its been a year now...yet the fragrance of the moment will live on forever....This post is a mark of my salutation for this moment ...I love it...

Avowal Series : Second Edition

Dear Mom,

Elegant shades on any canvas...speak of varied influences (both negative and positive). I present my true reflections of such influences on my canvas..influences which have destroyed/ cut short my growth as a person...influences which helped me grow as a person. I wish to acknowledge both these influences...I understand without the negatives...I probably will not have been able to appreciate the positives in my life....I understood there are emotions which are far more supreme than trust, love, betrayal and hatred...' Dignity of Thought & Soul '  is the theme for this edition of Avowal Series... I salute and respect everyone for their influences on my self...This work is my dedication for your support. 

With dignity...

Abhijith

 

Photo Credits: The image on display is the cover image for the second edition of Avowal Series. It has been designed by Tripti. Copyrights Reserved.

Soldier of Love...

Sometimes.. music/voice is a better mode of expression.....

I Recommend : Soldier of Love

Note: This pic is from my personal collection. Copyrights reserved.

What in life is worth a wait ?

One day, I woke up to a text update of status tags...The line happens to be the status message on my sister's facebook account...What in life is worth a wait? Interesting question....

Time brings back anecdotes to celebrate the moment... and certain lines like these add value. I have come to believe in destiny with complete faith. Most of my life, events / moments have been so random that when I tend to see them piece by piece they would make no real sense, but when I wish to put together a chain of events, it brings me more happiness to see how destiny has been playing a silent game of putting together pieces of jigsaw called life for me.

I wish to talk about moments which I had to wait for  8 years to come true... and I shall cherish them for rest of my life and beyond. Moments which presented me with happiness of thought and my existence. This post is to record my emotion of existence : March 11- 14.

Each emotion is filled in with moments...I have seen the high and understand every true emotion will touch a low...not to die down but to rise again to give us the freshness of it and cherish it even more. Destiny happens to be a critical examiner...pushes me deep into thought before presenting me with happiness of emotion....I have come to believe in destiny, because I strongly believe in my emotions.... Destiny  demands patience and sincerity, and then shall place back the moment, and let in freshness...

Friends, this in life is worth a wait...and I shall wait...

Please Note : Its You....

Stunning beauty that I could ever imagine,

is realized by my eyes.

So closely pulled onto my heart that I could hear,

the silent whisper in my ears.

The temple bells ring...announcing the much awaited arrival that I am astonished,

to understand that you are so immensely inspiring.

If only one could see it so closely as I did.

Dignity : Isolation

All I said...

Pick no flowers,

plant no roses at my side.

All I asked for...

When I am silent,

speak to me from your heart.

All I wish...

Respond to you perhaps,

but I leave it to you to appreciate its need.

All I seek...

An alternative,

when silence is not preferred.

All I promise...

I shall be so,

while you speak with your eyes.

All I shall be...

Unfortunately still breathing,

living in isolation amidst people around.

Destiny Reorganized!

At this juncture in my life, I wish to speak about how everyone of us wish to sit down and understand where we are headed with our life. Its a mix of independent and collective effort to understand our lives. Society is an interesting fabric. It gives us an opportunity to learn from our experiences but it is not helpful in reaching out to ourselves in the past.

All what used to be ... I am assured will never be the same again... All that I wish to have... I understand will never be within my reach....

Dignity : Souls & Humans...

Man is a free agent; but he is not free if he does not believe it, for the more power he attributes to Destiny, the more he deprives himself of the power which God granted him when he gave him reason...

- Giacomo Casanova

It is important for us to seek and protect our own dignity rather than blame destiny. It is more about our conscious efforts than anything else. Seek and you shall find.....

M.A.D....

Note: Please note that this post has no knowledge or research support from medical or psychological Studies. It is more of a personal observation of mine.

M.A.D... as I wish to put it is Multiple Attitude Disorder. I have seen many people in my life suffer from the above mentioned disorder. Firstly, let me discuss what I mean by M.A.D... Multiple Attitudes in simple setting is about how a certain someone tend to showcase different attitudes towards another certain someone depending on equation, circumstances, surroundings, situations which are all time bound. Without any personal bias, this is mostly observed in girls.

It is interesting to understand how this disorder tends to influence not only their attitude but also their decisions, actions and way they treat others. It is imperative to question ourselves whether or not we are needed to speak/be present in such situations when they arise. Most of the times it is a sudden attack of anger/ strong emotion that tilts the balance of a normal being to portray M.A.D. I strongly believe that such attacks if in minimal numbers add value to the emotion and also to the relation. But when such attacks happen to be more frequent and tend to create more disturbances than ripples, it is important to realize, that person needs some serious professional help....

Next time around, when someone says I am going M.A.D .... you know whom you are dealing with :)

Reaching Out ...

There is a constant need to understand ourselves. I wish to reach to that person...me within myself......

May be...at the start we were supposed to see all the sad moments in life/ meet all the wrong-deceitful-false pride-lying is the only thing i can do-people/ get treated badly by life for being nice-humble-polite-caring/ be handled and spoken to rudely  by life even when you valued the moment and invested your soul into it/ be let down by life ...before life smiles at you/ meeting the right people/ treated with dignity and respect/ life gives you all that you truly deserve/ rewards for your sincerity-honesty-speaking the truth-being righteous...so that we can appreciate the gift when life presents it to us.

Finally,  I made a conscious and painful decision to start working towards it. Wish me luck!

Dad....

I hope that you will always know, 

whatever I do, wherever I go 

there is one thing I will never outgrow, 

and that is my love for you...

In our eyes you hung the moon, 

no child could have ever ask God

for a better dad than you were to us. 

We loved you then, and we love you still! 

Our eyes might not be able to look 

upon your gentle loving face,
but if we look with our hearts 

we still see your love.

I love you dad and miss you even more.

This is not a work of mine but something I deeply connect to ...

I allow you to die alone ...

Everyone of us may have been through a period in our lives when we constantly question ourselves in regard to whether it was our responsibility that we ended up in the situation that we found ourselves in. Our constant battle with self in regard to finding a solution to the present situation will be lost in such a scenario. You tend to question your own ability to conquer and gain control over the situation. It becomes critical for us to believe in ourselves and understand that we were not wrong in our actions and that our expectations from ourselves and others were not met. This critical understanding of the situation is always needed. 

It is interesting that I wish to discuss a certain event in everyone's life i.e. death today. Friends, kindly do not get cynical and think that I hold a pessimistic view about life and death is all that I look forward to. No, the context in which this issue is discussed is in regard to that situation in our lives when we felt we were cheated by life, others and everything that is not us, and that we ended up in a situation where we cannot trust anyone and more so we are constantly struggling to find reasons to support an equation when it is already put to rest by forces beyond our control. It is important for most of us to realize that we are not wrong in our attempts to solve the equation. It is an attempt, a test by the divine power to make us realize what we are worth, friends it is important to understand we are our own torch-bearers and we alone can make or change our destiny and the way we wish to live our life. 

Many moments in my life, I have felt a strong urge to be critical about how others are, in regard to what they are as a person. I have met many people in my life who are big time losers, probably the word loser is a pretty decent way to describe their filthy trends of being ignorant, dumb and  challenged in regard to virtues.  I have noticed a common trend in all these unfortunate souls, they tend to create a false world around themselves, live in a false impression about living the life in good spirit, pretty low on self discipline and interestingly they offer dignity for happiness. A strong belief that false claims and ability to lie is seen as virtue by these friends of stupidity with very low regard to themselves and inability to understand that they are worth  far less than any small value of existence known to mankind. It is critical to realize that  these people who are pretty low in regard to self respect and character tend to use us as a tissue to grow over their fears. And many a time, we are left with a feeling of being treated with no respect. This, in my belief is the reason when most of us might have misunderstood our own abilities of being understanding enough to respect such beings who live life of deceit and concealment.

Friends, let us allow them to die alone ...

What Am I ? ART of being me

 

Note:  This post will deal with introduction of a concept of  Anticipation (Argument) - Review  (Reconciliation) - Trust yourself (Treated with Dignity). It is an attempt to understand how we need to evaluate the interest of a person we are in an argument with, in regard to arriving at a possible solution for a problem/issue at hand. 

When you feel a situation is beyond the possible human attempt to work on, and it is only leading to an emotional drain and being ill treated by life? It is always a known trend to anticipate, expect a certain reaction or certain scenario in regard to how things are and will be in the future. This is the anticipation phase of our solution analysis. This phase leads us into review mode and take stock of things. It is during this stage that we will be able to understand/judge the interest of the other parties involved in arriving at a solution. There is a strong possibility that everyone needs to compromise and arrive at a consensus for everyone to be happy. This phase is the most important of the three phases because it will define the value of yours. It is critical to understand that agreeing for a compromise is not about being ill treated but it is about our interest and sincere appreciation of the partnership/relationship/certain something which is under the review scanner now. 

This phase is followed by a critical phase of defining the way forward. It is always essential that you should trust yourself and do not let others/life/situations ill treat you and put you to a lower dignity. The essence of a happy life is about how we go about defining our dignity in the spaces we operate. It is interesting to notice and appreciate the fact that many times you wish to go the extra distance for its worth it. It definitely is, but if its an unfortunate situation that only you alone are trying hard while nature is forcing things away from you, then it is about time to recognize that nature and life is the best judge of the situation and everything does happen for a reason. It takes courage to let go and work on yourself for being a better person. Take every opportunity available to make the most of it. When life seems to be unfair and is forcing you to live on its terms in pain and being unhappy. It is more than just the need to change the situation...it is about how you should trust yourself and have faith in your ability. Its all about the question of whether or not you know the ART of living your life....Do you have the answer?

P.S.: This post has taken considerable amount of time and  I have recorded my observations at every phase of the process. True with any situation,  it is important to notice that the process is a long  drawn one. It is important that we respect it rather than hurrying ourselves into the next phase of the process.

Good Bye...

A Friend of mine shared this piece ... I realize its intent now ... I wanted to share it with readers of my blog.. The following lines are that of my friend....

ok...I know its strange that I am quoting an Ugly Betty episode, but this is too good to not pass on:

I've had to say goodbye more times than I would have liked. But everyone can say that. And no matter how many times we do it, even when if its for the greater good, it still stings. And though we'll never forget what we've given up, we owe it to ourselves to keep moving forward. What we cant do is live our lives always afraid of the next goodbye, because chances are they're not going to stop. The trick is to recognize when a goodbye can be a good thing, when its a chance to start again.

Take it for what its worth for you!

I Forgive You...

All through these years, I have learnt to understand how to identify the true intent of  a person and see if he/she is a friend or someone whom I should avoid. But today, as I look back at my life and recent years, I have come to believe that I have avoided many people because of  varied reasons...I wish to try my best to forgive all those who have had a negative impact on me or anything related to me. With this attempt, I wish to move on in life, being more happier with myself, my life and my existence in harmony to what all that life has given me and will give me in the future...

Mood : Pensive & Repulsive

 "In our obsession with original sin, we do forget ... original innocence"

 - Pope Innocent, of Assisi                     

     

It is always a tough decision to make : when things keep coming back at you, and yet you need to move on and  seek life with all consciousness. It is an understanding which is influenced by the quality of life I had, I wish to have and my firm belief to see my family and loved ones happy.

When it is tough to hold yourself ...let go yourself. It is always an innocent reflection of our thoughts when we see ourselves angry at an issue which we never really realize the true value of. What seems to be worth today, might not be, of the same value tomorrow. All that life has given you is a chance to be you, if you wish to seek reasons to live, it is definitely not worth it. Embrace life with open arms and experience its warmth, believe in yourself...all that you always want to be, you already are...what is needed is a sense of understanding, faith on your methods and a self respectful YOU!

Life...

Note: Friends this post is about how we need to understand ourselves and see life. It is not about being practical, but it is more about seeing life from a different focus point sometimes. This post is my attempt to understand from my own experiences. I hope the readers will benefit from it.

Life is not about practicality. It is more about understanding the value and the necessity of three important questions : how? when? why? Most of us are of the firm belief that prioritizing our activities/life is the key to success. But in this post, I shall attempt to bring to your notice that it is not a key to success but it is a key to failure.

Did you ever feel you always were doing things according to a plan, and yet you dont seem to get what you intend to achieve. You see people around you, lesser in regard to talent, skillset, effort...happy with their lives?  Well, did you always question yourself why does it happen to you, why do things dont go according to your plan? Well friends, the answer is nature. Nature is responsible for what happens around us, against us and also for us. It is unfortunate but it is true, nature likes chaos. Nature appreciates confusion.

If we wish to disturb the confusion, by trying to align our targets, our lives... we fall out from the nature's plan and our targets slip down the priority list for nature to accommodate.  It is easier to see life as it is, and understand that rather than controlling it, allow it to take the lead. Give it a chance to lead, and you shall see it will give you immense happiness. Friends, what will be... will be. It is easier to go easy on yourself rather than  get depressed with life. Allow life a chance .. that is the key to success. Allow yourself the joy of being what nature has planned for you...Seek and you shall be get...dream and you shall achieve...allow yourself to lose grip of life... and it will cling onto you.

Forget for a moment, that you exist...experience life with open hands...and friends there lies your happiness.. go for it!

A Moment...

P.S. : This moment has no further explanation....

Just One Chance : Lets Dance Again...

Fill my world,

with silence and surprise,

when I shall regain your sunrise.

Decorate my sky,

with stars and the moon,

when you shall be my zest for life soon.

Reward my wait,

with your laughter and joy,

my woman : beautiful than Helen of Troy.

Hatred...

Ask, and it shall be given to you; 

seek, and you shall find;

knock and it shall be opened unto you.

For every one that asketh receiveth;

and he that seeketh findeth;

and to him that knocketh, it shall be opened.

                            

                                     - Bible [Matthew 7:7-8]

 

Why is it that there is hate in this world ? It is interesting to see how we do not really understand the reason for this emotion. Love and hate are two emotions which are never really understood properly by anyone. Every person who walks on this planet earth have shades of positive and negative traits. It is rather difficult to arrive at a conclusion to judge a person completely....and then there is the element of time, what seems to be wrong or a bad trait can be gone, never to return and thus the person is a rejuvenated being, eligible for love. 

 

It is important to understand : Love the being and hate the quality, for it offers us happiness.

Sometimes, it is essential that we let go the past and embrace our present, for it offers us eternal peace and a happy future...for ourselves, our loved ones, family and friends..

Amen!

Together...All is Well...

Together we have solutions to our problems,

together we will find them within us...

Together is for being there for each other,
Together we define each other...

In the infinity of life where we are,

all will be perfect, whole and complete.

I believe in a power far greater than we are

that flows through us every moment of every day.

I open us to the wisdom within,

knowing that there is only One Intelligence in this Universe.

Out of this One Intelligence comes all the answers,

all the solutions, all the healing, all the new creations.

I trust this Power and Intelligence,

knowing that whatever we need to know is revealed to us,

and that whatever we need comes to us

in the right time, space and sequence.

All will be well in our world.

Transformation : W-O-M-A-N

Polite Note : Ladies amongst my readers, it is a sincere request to understand that this post is not about how impactful the transition of feminine power was on the society in the recent past, but it is more about the disgusting reality about how few amongst you are misled and are creating a havoc in otherwise peaceful threads of this fabric called society...please kindly restrain from venting your emotions about how supportive you are about the transition which I shall rightly criticize.... men, read on for I sincerely request you to learn about this aspect, because I have come to understand most of the women fall under this category and are if not anything else are ruining your lives...

Firstly friends, I choose to present this post without any image support that will help you understanding the emotion running through the post, because I felt disgust is an extreme emotion and needs no support to express itself. I am not an advocate of  anti-feminine initiatives, if any of you are seriously considering this thought, please do not read any further. Woman as she started out, centuries ago was mostly regarding as wife of a man (w/o-man) and revolutionary practices have seen them now live a life of with out a man (w/o-man). If any of you feel this is not the transition, thank god you do not belong to that set of women whom I am talking about in this post, please read on because they need your help to realize the truth. Most of us friends, I mean men... have come across women who tend to create an identity crisis for herself and subject you to unjust treatment because it is a disgusting fact which we need to live with, women are always right even if she is dumb headed to speak innocently and tell us that sun rises in the west... indeed it is , isn't  it friends? 

Life seems to be a stupid experience when we wish to live a life dictated by a woman who is  little if not completely challenged in regard to her faculties of mental maturity. Transition of freedom of expression for a man will include and is necessary to uphold the dignity of his woman, while for a woman can put her man to shame if that is all that is needed to satisfy her silly wishes... This isn't a post to vent my emotions my dear friends, for men amongst you...will silently agree with me, grow up you sick people! stop being silent about this treatment, dont surrender to stupidity...sun indeed rises in the east... for women amongst the readers, if you happen to understand that it indeed is true with someone who know, I am happy that you are there for her to make her realize how sick she is and that she needs immediate help... if you happen to disagree with this post... I surrender before you ..you are the disgusting woman  I am talking about, you seek no argument because there is nothing but emptiness in between your ears. For all such disgusting women, this post is a salutation to your unique attitude.. please allow others to live their lives!

My Wish : Be my reason to live or let me die...

'U'...

It is always our constant struggle to understand  ourselves, our emotions and our needs so that we resolve our future aspirations for ourselves. When  I am pressed with solitude, I tend to understand myself better.  Life has offered me many complex situations, forcing me to live by myself ... most of the time by choice and now by force...Likewise, if  U wish to seek solitude and understand yourself better, it is a noble deed. Yet, why is it that this solitude is plunging me into darkness? Understanding is an attempt to bridge the gap, and not to create a divide.

It is my determination to seek a fresh start to our lives, an understanding with which I wish  us  to proceed forward, but it is unfortunate sometimes when I wish to move ahead and seek to see the world afresh, you are not willing to let go...you who matter to me, my future.. you stand as the sole reason for me to smile today, only hope in my otherwise grief struck life. New year's eve as I have come to believe is an occasion to let go and seek life afresh...life full of happiness and trust...Today, I seek a new beginning, a life full of happiness.. filled with U every moment...

Union of 'U' and 'I' in thought and deed is all that I call for ..I  wish to make our lives happy. Union seeks an 'U' and 'I' for its completion. I am waiting here on the same bench...The sensation of life released from fragrance of flowers fail to breathe life into my dying soul. All I need is  'U' , for me to seek fresh air, feel the warmth of the morning breeze... I sit here...waiting for you ... be my reason to live or allow me to die...

Yours passionately,

I...

The Critical Addiction...

What we tend to believe in, is not exactly what we will end up doing. Life is always a complex maze. It is actually little paradoxical that we tend to believe that we understand all our actions. On the contrary, I have come to believe that it is not so. Let us analyze ourselves for a minute, when we try to do a certain something, the one influencing factor in most cases is how to get over with it.

Most of us, if I may say so,  the real cause for the initiation is normally not met, but we reconcile by creating a pseudo target for ourselves. It is our natural tendency to create this needed disturbance in our life, for we are addicted to our objectives, our interest in certain something which will make us re-align our actions.

For all those who seek an understanding of this post, please do not try too hard, the intent is pretty obvious . If you happen to judge the content of the post intellectually, it would lead you down a different lane of thought. Certain things in life are pleasant when you wish to acquire their ownership,when you do not know much about them, the interest is a constant graph, while once you manage to acquire an understanding, it is tough to maintain the same motivation. This again present itself in one of my strong beliefs which I happen to talk about in my post regarding advantages of Saree(an Indian Outfit), how there is a need for a constant challenging emotion for us to realize that the freshness shall never cease to impress us.

Comments are highly solicited...

Persian Odyssey

Its been an interesting experience to understand how it is to live in a country that is different in its approach, its attitude...how it feels to be living in a state of our own, disconnected with the rest of the world. I sit here next to the Azadi Square in Tehran and observe how every minute detail of this city is far from being global. Its been every country's effort to position itself, rather position at least few of its cities on the global 'We Matter!' Map, while Iran seems to be enjoying its solitary existence. Persia, the land that excited many to seek a better understanding of Islam now stands alone.

It is interesting to note that what seems to be a city lacking glamor, has people with great and friendly attitude. Iranians are quite friendly unlike what seems to be the global line for Iranian Policies. My trip to Tehran dated September 2009 will remain one of those most memorable trips of mine, a trip to that land which continues to hold attention on the global front for various reasons. I understand the amount of knowledge and culture that Iran can share and educate the rest of the world with is precious and unique, it is unfortunate that neither Iran nor the rest of the world can accommodate their differences with the other. What we tend to read, is what we tend to believe in and what we believe is will result in what we tend act upon. It is essential to understand the needs of Iran and the demands of the rest of the world to seek a solution to various problems so that Iran, a culturally rich tradition can be integrated with rest of the world and benefit from its rich tradition and knowledge...

- Abhijith Jayanthi ...Tehran 2009

Summoning: The Taste of Grief

'Love those who hate you...'

- Leo Tolstoy

It is sometimes more disturbing to understand that one is in such a state of pity, that he/she has no right to offer judgment, rather is a mere object in this schematic, disturbed by an action, and has no right to react. If God alone was responsible was the creation, he himself is responsible for the action as well, which would invite a logical remark : he himself is responsible for the reaction. It is not a noble deed to react on our own, act on our will, but need to show restraint, and allow god to direct us to react...

Life is an ever learning experience, I always acknowledge this fact. But, did I really live the experience? learn from it? Cheated, am I by my own self ? Is it a reflection of my value education or my principles? Dignity of thought is always a yardstick to judge ourselves, and I have come to believe it is truly so. Dignity of our conscious actions will help us in being true to our values and self. This post is a record for this overwhelming emotion. This world will have to learn to seek value and dignity, there will be a moment in our lives when each one of us wishes to seek forgiveness but it would be uncalled for, more so might not be well received...

Apt are the following words...

"...Love those that hate you, but to love those one hates is impossible. Forgive me for having troubled you. Every one has enough to bear in his own grief! ..."

Is there an appropriate ending to this pressing emotion or this post ? My answer is No...

P.S.: After reading the above post, if you felt it meant something, then I shall be happy that you have seen reason... if you feel it was irrelevant, then probably you are right.

Destiny Test : My Kind

Place: Sagar Kiran

Date: 22-Jul-2009

Firstly, I wish to issue a friendly reminder that this letter has nothing to do with the test that Society of Peregrines uses to help determine who might be destined to vanquish evil. It is more about my experiences aboard Sagar Kiran (For the uninitiated, Sagar Kiran is a Jack-Up Drilling Rig off the Western Coast of India) that I wish to write about in this post. Life seems to be unpleasant to say the least in regard to the turn of events in the recent past, it seems to have lost the charm it had. Destiny seems to have played a spoilt sport in regard to helping my life seek the correct direction. What I wish to speak about in this post, is more about my inability to influence a change. It is rather long, that this phase has been casting its shadow on my life. I wanted to record these thoughts, so that they do the noble work of reminding me that its about time to change.

For my efforts to change... and my determination, let the fate and destiny surrender...

Life..truly yours!

Abhijith

We Vs Me Debate

"...help me to be ME"

Its fascinating to understand that most of us don't seem to understand the meaning of society. It is always necessary to be able to strike the right balance between being one amongst us and being you. This post is related to my tryst with one's efforts to understand self.

It is always easy to point fingers, but it is tough to understand that pointing fingers is more about pointing at self. We drive ourselves to that position when we wish to seek more than what we presumably can take. What one needs, is patience and a firm understanding of one's self. We need to achieve our objectives, met our goals, this is a fast moving world, but when do we realize that everyone has their own pace? One should not fear going forward slowly; one needs to fear only to stand still.

There are many reasons, why this post has seen the light of the day, but there are only few to explain the choices that we make. When we tend to look at life as an abstract art form, we don't believe it truly is abstract for we can make sense of it, everyone has his/her own meaning depending on their sensibilities. Likewise, it is about time that we understand the meaning of our life and existence.

All the Best!

Ornament of the Night

She hesitated, perched at the edge,

that malady called doubt pervading her thoughts.

Would her wings be strong enough?

Her heart said yes, but her mind rebelled

Battling one another in her core.

With herself as the single casualty

She sensed the footsteps approaching

… The palms pushed her from behind

…The ground slid out from beneath

And then the wind became her harness

Too weak to sustain her, she sank…

But her descent met its end

Her wings suddenly broke out of paralysis

Propelling her towards the Heavens

And she rose, higher and higher

So when she turned to thank him

He was no more than a blur in the distance…

Galaxies away,

He smiles at the newly-formed star of the night sky.

Satisfied, he continues along the edge

Seeking out another of doubt’s victims.

(This is not a personal work of mine, and is a true reproduction of the original piece. I wanted to record it today, for I felt the time has come...Her wings finally broke out of paralysis, and the ascent has begun.)

Paradigm: Vicious Monosyllables of Life

Nothing is inevitable in life. I have come to believe, there is an intermediate state between being ignorant and being arrogant in life. It is when we seem to consciously ignore various elements, to have a happy existence that one tends to be sucked into the vicious circle of thought going down the spiral to a state of solitude.

Everyone has got their moments in life, when one feels left out, but what makes such experiences even more unique is the fact that, it is during such moments that we finally get an appointment with logic. I sincerely believe, and strongly advocate that miracles are possible, and are beyond logic. But, when you get to understand the larger picture, miracle is not a singular moment, but it is a collection of events which result in the same, and logic is clearly seen in how these events shape up.

What I wish to conclude from the above discussion, is the fact that one is always sucked into the vicious circle, when one is searching for logic to explain and understand various events. In such cases, it is important that we understand when a singular event fails the logic, it is better that we include various related events in the larger picture and then search for a possible logic. I have experienced an understood ease in analysis when I applied this postulate. I hope it helps the reader as well.

Foolish Destiny...

It will be an interesting meeting between destiny and dignity, if that will ever happen. I have noticed many instances in my life, when in struggle to achieve my destiny, I in a subtle, unknown way compromise on my own dignity. If it may happen, that with dignity, destiny can be attained, then it would be a pleasant anomaly to this reluctantly agreed upon nature's order.

They say, one is furnished with his/her needs, only when he/she asks for it. It is indeed a similar trend in regard to understanding how the universal soul, furnishes us with means to meet our desires, only after we acknowledge the need for the same.

It will be an interesting exercise to solve this paradox, let me take the help of a simple mathematical understanding to arrive at what I want to conclude, lets examine the sides of an Isosceles right angled triangle. (For the uninitiated, Isosceles right angled triangle is a triangle, with one of its angles equal to 90 Degree, and the other two angles both being equal to 45 Degrees, with the total sum of angles adding up to 180 Degrees). In such a triangle, not getting into the details of proving the following statement, it is seen that both the sides opposite to the 45 Degree angles, are of equal length and the side opposite to 90 Degree angle is square root of 2 times the length of the other two sides, this fundamental is a conclusion from Pythagoras Theorem.

Now, drawing an analogy, if we regard destiny and dignity as the two equal sides, signifying the equal importance each hold to any argument, we understand that they come to meet at a right angle, thus ruling out the possibility of influencing one another i.e. if we stand on one of these sides of the triangle and judge if there is any shadow on it due to the other, we would find none. Thus, when these two independent quantities are analyzed for a possible meeting, it is possible only when we stand on the third side, and see these sides both casting a shadow on it.

From the above explained logic, we can sense that the union of these two elements will result in a strength equal to square root of 2 times the value of each of them independently. This speaks of how the only possible option of both of these factors influencing equally any argument (remember, since both the angles are each equal to 45 Degrees, the strength of their influence i.e. length of the shadow on the third side is also equal, hence the influence from both elements is of similar strength in this case) has reduced strength.

It is important that we note this development of dependency, and understand the condition under which it might happen so that we can benefit from it.

तुम...

एक ख्वाब...
एक ख़याल...
एक हकीकत हो तुम...
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Life: Something amiss

Location: Pride Hawaii

Date: 23rd March 2009

When land slips from beneath our feet, is it the fear to hold ground? or is it just the casual anxiety of a new beginning that creates the difference in our feet? On my first trip offshore, I had the experience of staying on a jack up platform. With water all around, I wish to call this phase of my life, ' Aquatic Surrender'.

What makes this experience unique is the fact that, even when I was surrounded by people, I felt as if I was deserted on a platform with no way to escape, no route to take. It is a weird feeling to stand on the edge of the platform, and look down into the water...

Seeking beyond the landscape my eyes can capture, I still stand here... all alone, with my own self for company. And all that I understand is...life is all about bridging the thin gap between what you desire and what you get...that is where it begins, and where it ends...

Quixotic Serendipity

Seasons come...
... and go.

Seldom do we realize the...
...taste of our first kiss.

Seek it together, shall we...
...that state of eternal bliss?

Ecstasy: Celebration by a Free Soul

Such is her warmth,
and the hold...
I savored every moment of the long wait,
for her to fold...

Such is her company,
when I go cold...
I stand here with my heart and soul,
sold...

Such is her smile,
beautiful and bold...
Life with her seems,

a honey filled cup of gold...

Sweet Surrender: Within you, I wish to lose myself...

Date: 18th February 2009
Location: Hyderabad

To,
You...

At Dawn today, I stood by the same sea shore, where we first met...waiting for you... to tell me what "we" meant to you. Its been a longtime since we first met, savoring moments from our journey that took us through many beautiful lanes and by-lanes of living. Standing by the sea, I understood how you were similar to the warmth of the sand, holding me firmly to the floor, giving me strength to stretch my arms and feel the warmth of the sun. I wanted to enjoy that feeling forever, but I realized I lost the sand to the water exposing the voids in my feet... I understood how without you, my life will have voids I can't fill.

Is it this feeling that I have no strength to fill the voids, or is it the warmth that you provide to explore the sunshine? Is it the faith that there is nothing beyond you that I need to seek, nothing except you, within whose sphere, I can safely lose myself and yet be a winner ? Is it this feeling which is giving me strength to seek you, and bind you completely...even when all that I know about you is just you...


Within you, I wish to lose myself...forever!

regards,
Me...

Schlum-dog Millionaire

(This post is a result of a recent conversation/realization about what I am trying to do in my life. At this juncture, it is necessary on my part to impress upon the reader that this post speaks of a personal account and might not excite you, if you are looking for a voice on global issues.)

Job life as I have pointed out many times earlier in my previous posts, is rather a different game compared to student/academic life. Recently, I was trying to figure out what are few important driving points for what I am trying to do in my life. As always, movies play a huge role (at least in Indian context, they do!) and I was attracted to comparing myself to the lead character of slumdog millionaire, not that the movie does not have enough parallel analogies already, but it is interesting to notice a striking similarity in titles!

For someone who is interested in earning a decent start, and in the mean time decide what exactly he wants to do in his life : in the process getting into a different mode of working, a more tabular life, and more with the company he is working with, suits the title Schlum-dog millionaire. The title is self explanatory...

Period...

(P.S. :

• Why I wish to leave 3 lines before the end?...Space is an important need when we work in tabular mode.
• Special Mention: Shival Kathe for his contribution in arriving at this title.)