Dear Rachel,
I had a dream…a dream
about myself few years from now. It was about me writing a letter and
delivering it at your grave…
Rachel,
Little, may be insignificant
something originated from the brief intersection of our lives some time ago. I
remember the day when we met after a long time. You asked me if I was honest
in what I said. I answered affirmatively, and you revealed yourself as the
same, in a soft voice barely audible over the noise in the surrounding. I remarked
on the karmic connection of our present premises…being connected after a long
time. You returned with, "Yes, and despite the technology too."
On the other
hand, your affirmation was evidently not genuine, which I could gather little
later. I was honest to counsel you from my amateur's seat of clarity. I asked
if you truly are where your heart is, because that is where you must be, and
stop living on others’ emotions. With your canny demeanor, you replied that you
were true about your emotions. My respect for honesty did not seem to impress
you with a prospect for your immediate success. Discoveries about your
relentless efforts to deceive everyone in your life surprised me. My inevitable
decision...my choice to let go followed.
You were like a
river singing the same song with the gushing waters, no matter who stops by to enjoy
your melody. Alas, you could not realize that a song of love is worthy
enough to be true and a continuous one. My thoughts and feelings were never understood,
for we had no language in common.
Now that you are
no more, and that I write to you after a long time, I feel awkward, for writing
to a person like you, who not only suffered while being alive, but also not regretful
enough that you bless your soul to suffer more, for sinful deeds of your
existence.
May your soul
rest in peace, or in pieces?
With dignity,
Albert
To be continued…
P.S.:
This blog post presents a first view/glimpse of the chapter titled ‘Final Dream’
of my book (not yet published) titled Precocious Truth: Unrequited Love. You
may read the prologue for the same here.
