I Vs Me...

Dear Dad,

I wish to record one of my empirical observations today. My experiences tend to align with the thought that divinity seeks democracy in regard to choices we make. I have observed that religious people are more democratic in regard to options they are presented with and choices they make. They associate an element of control with a superior power in regard to how a decision swings their chances of success. 

It is important to notice the new theological thought which is observed these days. It is a blend of classical Christian thought of  righteous living with a self styled approach about morality. People hardly give any thought to the building of character, rather subscribe to an eroding school of value education. 

I learnt that our innate ability to seek purity in our thought will help us look upon the invisible elements of  nature as though they were clearly perceptible to our senses, making us more receptive to human suffering, giving us strength to walk the path of respecting human emotions.

According to Hindu philosophy of karma, we are to enjoy the positive and negative reflections of our deeds, and that each action of ours and its reflection will  get accrued. Today, we are enjoying/suffering from the reflections of our deeds from the past, and what we choose to do during our life, will cast its reflection on our future and beyond. There are numerous threads of religious beliefs, and each of us have our unique thread to tag. I have chosen my thread.

Our deeds might be short lived, but their reflections will stay forever and shall tell the tale of our character...

Allah Hafiz!

Abhijith Jayanthi 

Feb 2010

Her Distorted Morality

   I said,
 "I want 'you' to fill my life, my love...
  I knew it was 'you' ever since I was introduced, to an emotion called 'you'...
  I remember 'us' together in a distant place and time, when 'we' were in a candlelight chamber....
  I felt sweet scent of roses wafting through 'your' breath, while tender music played softly at a distance...
  My heart melted away, and I love 'you' forever and so I shall continue to do..."

 Then 'She' lied,
 " ' I ' love you too..."

Hence, in this way I was introduced....
                                                      ....to 'Her' distorted morality.

The Silent Danube

Rich in her flow,

She illuminates our lives with her gentle glow.

Once after a fall,

She comes together to stand tall.

Measure of an identity in each of her droplets,

She completes an octave filling the goblets.

Arouse a true emotion,

She is unique...yet one in an ocean.

Seeking You...

Its been seven years....I still have the rose in my hand, while I am waiting for you. For seven years, I knew it was love when nothing I did  felt  better than being together with you. I do not know if being in love meant holding hands, but all that I know is with you...my gray skies turn blue. Seven years...my love  for you  speaks of  every day spent together, with excitement of an approaching spring. I wait here, with roses  for you ..albeit not as fresh as my memories of your kiss that made me see beauty in everything around me. 

I stand here waiting for you, to find myself again...in the shadow of my love for you.

Rewind...

Accompanying you at dawn...I had the pleasure to seek the elegance of  your charming face, as beautiful as  the  full moon on a summer night. Your hair as black as night, and eyes as sharp as a blade of grass and dark to cast shadows hiding your emotions. Your smile seeks beyond the beauty of a blossoming rose.You fill your kiss with life and embrace with warmth.

Be my friend in my loneliness and exile; allow me to embrace the sweetness of life. I happen to exist having forgotten the taste of my own soul, guide me to find light. Dry the tears rolling from my eyes, comfort me to seek warmth of your embrace...allow me to be lost in the celebration of our emotion. For what you mean to me, words fail to explain.. for us I shall happily let go...everything except you, because with you by my side, I have nothing else to seek...Accompany me, my love... till I shall walk into dusk....

Note: My journal entry of Simply Me! circa July 2009

My Bruised Heart....

I...

Life is more about living an emotion than anything else. Expectations of my emotion run beyond the tenacious ridicules. I suffer in pain to seek perfection, to grow over my anger..to walk past the water wall to seek you.

You...

With no sincerity, dazzle me with false cries. Riding a false wave of desire, seek beyond me. Understand from the wrecks of such lost wanderers of the past, seek light for the entire journey over momentary excursions.

Us...

I still hear your false cries ringing in my ears...I remember the lies you whispered in my ears. I lived a never ending tale...never loved...Today, I realize that death is not the greatest loss in life, but it is when  an emotion is butchered from inside...we cease to exist even when we continue to live...my death. I realize when everybody is  failing to understand the emotion...wish to seek an alternative, draw lines to go beyond, someone will have open his heart, undo the lines, stand his ground, support everybody to rise...and suffer the pain alone...and I am ready to be that someone, for there was never Us to live for...

Ubi Major, minor Cessat...

There is always a burning desire, to understand normative approach to someone's behavior (For the uninitiated, normative theory in regard to ethics is a concept which speak of a method to morally investigate the set of questions related to particular action(s)) I am not trying to pass a moral-value judgment, but I am trying to understand the reasons behind such an action.

Often, it is important to understand that perception and intention play a vital role in understanding a behavior of a person. To consciously create an emotional disturbance, speaks of one's nature, and their attitude towards others. To seek such a treatment, and yet forgive...speaks of divinity of our souls...

As they say in Italy, 'Vitiis nemo sine nascitur...Vivere commune est, sed non commune mereri...' which explains how no one is born without faults...everybody live their life, even if everybody do not deserve to...Everyone of us have shades of negatives and positives..our existence is more about which of the shades  we wish to showcase when we live our life...and that is all that matters...

'Veritas vos liberabit...' Only the truth will set you free..... 

Note: This post is dedicated to my friends in Italy.

Nice Talking to You...

 

A phrase often used, yet never really understood,"Nice talking to you...".  There is a subtle difference when one uses "Nice to talk to you..."  as against "Nice talking to you..." . The former means "It will be nice to talk to you, now that we've finally met", and is normally said at the beginning of the conversation, whereas "nice talking to you" means "Our conversation has been very good", and is said at the end....

When we wish to live a life, with little or no time to enjoy what we truly cherish, and when we wish to live a life filled with emotions ..and without words...if phrases like "Nice talking to you...." greet us...it hurts...

Silence often gives us enough time to understand what is now past, and what we wish to seek, to be our future. Bless me with patience, to live... to be greeted by "Nice to talk to you..." and courage to forget the greeting, "Nice talking to you..."