Glimpses: Value and Need

I never use to realize how important is the role of glimpse… it gives the necessity need to look forward for something. More so, we tend to start appreciate the act much before the actually act is done. This understanding is not only applicable for us in terms of understanding our emotions but also the sales promotions, lets talk about movies for example, these days it has become a necessity for most of the movies to work on its pre-launch publicity, promos, rushes trailers with actors and actresses speaking about their experience acting in the movie, funny bits in the movies which might have been subject to editor’s or censor board’s cut are discussed, more so it is the needed fodder for most of the gossip magazines to keep themselves afloat..

Glimpses… a short introduction to the actually act.. gives us the needed thrill to look for it and assimilate it when we really indulge ourselves in doing it. My trips home these days for a period of day or two have been such glimpses to understand and appreciate what makes a place or house…a home . This huge, yet sometimes untouched line of difference between home and house is an interesting way of how we react to situations…. Why do we call some place our home while we cannot attribute the same even when we have our family with us at some other place.. say like vacation… the emotion of security, emotion of belonging goes beyond the attachment with people, sometimes I personally think the effect of place can grow on you .. and can actually make you do crazy stuff … From personal experience again, I love and always look forward to going back to Hyderabad whenever I get time to do so, not only because I belong to that place, my family still stays there, but it is because I have a sense of pride for being a 'Hyderabadi' ... the essence of living is all about defining yourself..how one tends to do it , is actually one’s own effort in understanding the surroundings, in this regard we have a lot to learn from the effect of glimpse...it drives us to seek more and then we are all by ourselves to understand why we want to do it in the first place... so to understand if we truly miss someone or something..probably subjecting ourselves and the emotion to 'Test of Glimpses' might help...

Fears of a Fatidical Soul

As a prologue to this discussion, I wish to list those lines which my friend shared with me , and these lines stand as the driving influence for me to write this post...

"...so I had to realize that while it was important to have a fantastic time, that I should at the same time not let myself get too drawn in… to remember that this was only temporary – to keep a little bit of an emotional distance..."

In this blog post, I make an attempt to speak about the moderation of attachment towards various emotions... There is a key parameter that I wish to speak about, which influences our point of view... just a glimpse of emotion or attachment holds us onto it and is not easy to let go. Considering this point, I personally agree that we need to be detach ourselves to any such worldly emotion.

I have an observation which I wanted to share, when we are talking about the emotion of a person, considering what I just said, we probably need to make a choice of whether or not that person holds an eminent place in our life i.e. who composes our emotional makeup ... there is always variation in the degree of attachment... detaching ourselves from those people who do not hold such a place.. this helps us in many ways, prioritizing life, we know whom we really care about and it is easy to let go because we know that this emotion is not in our chart and then we are moderate in our attachment quotient and glimpses of that emotion wont really influence us ...It is about this choice that we make that is an important learning from these lines...

And then from what I firmly believe in, for people whom we really care, we will enjoy the emotion and do our best to nurture, protect it. Again this sense of attachment should not be seen as an obsessive attachment... At the end of the day, everyone wants to be happy... one will be happy when he/she is with people they understand and care for, that sense of trust and understanding should not be seen as a sense of dependency but rather it is a sense of independent existence.. that you are free to experiment with life.. do what you enjoy the most because there is someone with you always who will take care..whom you can fall back on ... just in case...

This is a reminder for myself ...not to live life with self-imposed moderation, rather I wish to experience life ...

Hoodibaba!

Its an amazing feeling today, the fact that I am now flying back home! It is an interesting transition to understand how things seem to be pleasant when you head home after a long time! The feeling which seeks no further explanation, it is that sensation which I wont do justice to, if I attempt to describe it in words..perhaps it is because this feeling is beyond words of human comprehension...

Khallas!

Kismat Konnection

The flakes of ash made my ivy…
Consumed by its mundaneness,
I lived a tale of privy.

You brought the rain…
Washed away in its gentleness,
I now, live a life sans pain.

Led by an artificial finger…
Who would I have become,
for the dual shadow did linger?

You brought through the silk breeze…
Lost in its curved hold,
my happiness shall never again freeze.

Is it the Kismat Konnection that did the tie?
With me, this emotion shall lie,
Until the last star in the sky shall die.

Relationships: The Critical Angle

We often realize that a relationship needs an additional push...this is a common phase one goes through, at least once in his/her life. Before I proceed, it will be worth to mention that what I talking about in regard to relationship...can range from the emotion we share with our parents, friends to love of our life...I wanted to record one of my thoughts today, regarding how our image about a relationship is always bound to change every moment...and how we need to understand our traits, rather than its pulse to sustain it and be happy about it...

On a different note, it is interesting that people do not realize that any relationship is not time bound, rather it is a constant change of weights in an equation you share with the other person. You can never really withdraw yourself from the equation ... an image of a person is always in the phase of transformation, constantly improving as you gain a better understanding of the person and the relationship you share with him/her. You tend to share the weight, when you start appreciating the relationship, while you tend to throw more weight against each other when you want to move away from it.. but you can never really avoid it...

Back to what I wanted to talk about in this post, it is an interesting lead, at least to gain a better response to our behavior . Most of us, at some point in our life realize that we as a person need to give one of the relationships that additional push... its mostly because when we start off, we tend to create an obtuse angle in our efforts to understand the person...investing into the relationship. As we move further in regard to relationship and time, it is likely that this angle of our effort starts moving into the acute angle space, where we tend to get less particular about details which might have interested us earlier ...It is always essential that we maintain a constant angle...the critical angle which needs to be established so that you not only strike a right balance between necessary effort for the relationship but also allow yourself the needed space to portray your individuality...To be successful in sustaining a relationship, and also to cherish it, it is essential to understand where this critical angle lies and try our best to maintain it in our efforts ...I strongly believe, if we can analyze any issue that is bothering any of the relationships we share with others... it is not about the distances, but this angle about our sense of attachment for that person ....which is creating the difference or helping us fight it!

Prejudice about the Future

It is interesting to note that one can learn a lot about their life, how they wish to shape their own future from various sources and experiences, even experiences which they might rarely enjoy. This supports the belief that one needs to be receptive every time... This attempt to record an understanding about how we tend to get entangled in issues which are very trivial and hold ourselves from experiencing tomorrow, is because of my visit to one of the painting exhibitions in Abu Dhabi ... before I proceed, I need to be honest and admit that visiting art or painting exhibitions is normally not what I enjoy the most...so, I visited an exhibition of Picasso paintings...

My initial feeling was that most of the works on display were probably not the best pieces to showcase the genius in Picasso and that the gallery in Paris had a better collection... but my opinion had to change... I came across this picture which impressed me immensely, and probably stands as a perfect sample to testify Picasso's view about painting...

'For me, doing a painting consists of performing a dramatic act in the course of which reality is torn apart!'

It is also interesting to note that a piece of art influences everyone in a personalized way and one can take away a completely different meaning from what the piece was suppose to portray... This painting is a depiction of sexual aggression, understandably so, it stands out as a notable piece of work from a person who suffered from narcissistic personality disorder and an intense interest in women...

What interested me in this painting though, is how people are always anxious, not able to see the bigger picture. Everyone of us leads an anxious existence, followed by a conventional practice of surrender... it is always essential to grow over this feeling before we are taken in by its destructive fury...having a certain degree of concern for our future is always essential, but it should not become our only concern, guiding our present... one needs to learn...to see present as it is, rather than seeing it as a driving pilot for the future...

Duality in Religion

I wish to record my understanding of experiences dated 1st September 2008. Religion always poses itself as an interesting X-roads, one is born into a religion and then constructs his/her own viewpoint through various experiences, thus subscribing to a multi-religious faith...one that is one's own, because everyone takes away a different experience from a similar episode in life...

As Children, we all were great observers of our parents' behaviors, paying close attention to their actions and were more likely to follow that lead rather than follow the words our parents use...

Life is a collection of experiences, and you keep learning new (and sometimes varied) practices, which are indeed strong exhibits of culture... culture again being strongly influenced by religion...we tend to pick up ideas, thoughts from various places and nurture them to be our own... thus moving into a space of inter-faith existence.

It is interesting that we do not normally realize the influence, which is normally overshadowed by the faith we subscribe to...but thinking over it a little will help us understand how we move through our lives thinking that we definitely know what kind of an idealogy we subscribe to, but in practice what we follow is a fusion of what we gather from our everyday experiences...

For me, faith is less a religion than a philosophy, an ethical and psychological way of awakening. It is a way of life, a path of enlightened living...it is not merely about beliefs but about practice of spirituality (definition of which is always one's own).

Thinking over this...I am reminded of a dialogue in a hindi movie 'Border' which I trust is apt for this context "Hum hi hum hai, tho kya hum hai ....tum hi tum ho, tho kya tum ho"